Coming to terms . . . Relto
Relto is still something to which I am still not entirely comfortable with. I feel more comfortable in the city with other Explorers. I do not feel comfortable walking around, alone, at the top of a mirror reflecting my own thoughts.
Right now, I am afraid about what I am thinking. But I cannot spend all forever is Eder Tsogahl trying to feel the support of friends. Eventually I was going to have to surface, get on with my life. Deal with the people who still believe that this place is a fiction.
The warmth in Eder Tsogahl had helped. I thought I can deal with linking back to Relto and then on to the surface. And then I linked. I thought I was ready for what I was going to find in Relto. I always think I am going to be ready for that.
I wonder if anyone else has noticed how it almost feels like all of possibility is churning around them as one links. I have seen some very strange things in the instant before reality seems to become solid again (if the mind can every really adjust to such a thing and call it seeing).
The first thing I notice is getting hit if the face, even before I think I am really there. It is the wind. It is raining, hard. I linked in down near the dock. It is raining so hard. I have never seen this place like this before. Looking around, the rain, the wind, the clouds. This cannot be my home!
I turn to run to the hut. I don't even see the butterflies. And looking over my shoulder, off the dock, I see it. I can't believe what I am seeing.
I made my way back down to the dock, trying to judge how to get the best image of what I was seeing.
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I only was able to get this one shot before I fell. I slipped on a log or stone or just wet wood, and I was falling. I felt like I just wanted to fall, forever.
I closed my eyes, held my breath, and just linked. . .
Relto. Normal rainy Relto, not the hard impossible wind and rain of merely an instant ago. Just the light.
I suddenly feel the need to get back to the city. But first I need some help getting this image out of my KI.
Was that real, or was I dreaming? Was that real?
